Energy...

Lately, energy throughout the day has not necessarily been something that is difficult to come by for me.  It is toward the day's end that I begin to lack energy and motivation, as is usually the case for most people... it usually happens when I need to be at home cleaning or spending time with my roommate, at the gym working out, or the time I should be spending in fellowship with others.  You know that feeling?  You know the feeling that you have when you know if you take a seat on the couch you are done for the night regardless of what you SHOULD be doing?  Yeah, that one... that feeling has been ridiculously overwhelming recently.  The days do NOT drag on and on, but by the end I am spent. 

There has been much attention given to my energy level for a few days now, not just be me charting and attempting to channel it, but by other people taking notice of the craziness known also as happiness.  On a recent morning, I began to wonder where it is that I am getting all of this energy and where it is going.  Lately it has been an unbelievably spectacular feeling to be so "bubbly" and somewhat hyper... but just awesomely happy and joyful... feelings I have not had for a very long time.  I wonder why all of the sudden I lack motivation to do much of anything by the end of the day even though the energy seems to "radiate" from me throughout it.  Could it be that maybe I am draining myself?

I sit in my chair at the dining room table, my coffee and morning devo in front of me, staring out the amazingly huge windows that fill our room with the morning sunlight.  I watch the sun come up over the hill that rests on the east side of my yard.  I take notice... the rays slip through the breaks in the clouds, peaking through the tree branches wherever they can.  Beauty and majesty... God at his finest!!!  Then it hits me... energy... the complete source of energy.  God is the Energy... He is the energy that I have made a renewed commitment to... Energy like no other.  That is where I get it... where does it go?  The source of my joy and happiness... the warmth of my heart... my bubbliness!!!  I did not know that renewing a promise of focus and commitment to Christ would bring so much joy to my heart and life!!!  I pray that I keep that sparkle in my life.  It is the life I choose to live... faith in Christ Jesus and what He has done.  That is my choice for energy.  An energy source like no other... that is more than enough to keep me going.

A few reflections from this week have really energized my heart.  I am blessed in so many areas of my life (all of them to be exact).  One of my morning devotionals encouraged me to get up early and watch a sunrise.  I giggled because at LEAST five days out of the week I enjoy this experience and marvel.  What is so stinkin cool about it?  God's power in the universe and how He is always providing some light in the dark places... I cannot even begin to describe or attempt to put it into words... it is that wonderful of a feeling!!!  I realized just how cool mornings are when I was driving to work on an extremely clear morning.  I look up and see the stars and a full moon shining so brightly.  I look forward and see little rays of sunshine creeping up over the horizon... at the same time?  AMAZING!!!!  That just blew my mind to see the moon and the stars shining so brightly and at the same time to see signs of the sun illuminating the sky.  I cannot express how amazed I was and how wonderful a feeling I felt.  Take the stars and moon by themselves and see the light they give... take a sunrise and the beautiful colors that paint the sky... at the same time though?  STUNNING!!!  If God can do that, what can't He do?  It led me to this sweet realization of just how powerful, creative, and infinite the God of the universe truly is.  What an absolutely amazing revelation!!!!  It is the every day blessings I so often take for granted... but God opens my eyes.  He opened my eyes that morning and has done so many times since.  What an awesome and indescribable God I serve!!!
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The Energy
By: Sharina Marie Schaller
Written on 01/14/2012

Energy to raise the sun every morning and cause it to gently fall beneath the horizon out of sight.
Energy that lights the darkness with the moon and the stars in the sky at night.
Energy that pulls raindrops and snowflakes to a parched earth.
Energy that can take a dying seed and from it give new birth.
Energy of the living water that grows the plants and animals that feed.
Energy that causes the wind to blow - that feeling in the whisper of a breeze.
Energy that holds masses and galaxies together and swings planets around the sun.
Energy timed perfectly to shine through cracks in the clouds and trees, revealing Him as the One.
Energy that created this miracle known as life, keeps a beating heart pounding and a breathing lung filled.
Energy that provides and is the cure, that causes someone to be miraculously healed.
Energy that turns stone to clay to be molded and shaped as He wants it to be.
I have this energy burning inside and fueling me.
Energy only God can provide, making a change and breaking down walls inside.
God is the energy that keeps me going even if I feel I cannot survive.
Energy that opens my eyes to see a heart only He can revive.
If this energy flows for me, through me, and in me, then nothing can come against.
My God is my energy, the purpose for which I live.